Lost and losing it

Today is possibly one of the most depressing days of my life, my future (if there is one) is shrouded with uncertainties and I feel worthless and useless. The little confidence that I have built up has been totally knocked and I'm not liking the feeling. I want so desperately to please everyone and myself that I think I've lost myself; I have too many worries and doubts and I'm just not living to the full. My art is failing and my other work is following it. I'm just deflated and lost all the motivation to work. I don't want it to be like this, I have so much emotion that I need to express, hopefully this blog will help me release a bit more of myself, if not I don't know what I could do...